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Small Group

This evening in our small group we dug even deeper into this topic that has been so dear to me for the past several months. That topic is community, more particularly how to be a better community. We watched an incredible video, about a son caught in a lie, and a father tell him there was NOTHING that he could do that would make him love his son less. NOTHING. The opening question was “Why do people act unnatural when they are doing or have done something they know is wrong?” Some of us in the group threw out some personal thoughts and reflections, and the next question asked was “What causes people to lie?” Answers like shame, desire to seem perfect, and fear filled the room for quite some time. This led to the question “What causes this search for perfection?” I answered that social stereotypes and standards could be the cause, and another person suggested having too high personal standards for yourself.

 … and then from that point the conversation developed into a very deep and multi-faceted discussion about how to hold others accountable, helping each other, allowing yourself to be vulnerable (especially when expecting others to be vulnerable in return).

It was highly agreed upon that we are called to carry each other’s burdens and love our neighbors as ourselves. How do we do that? We allow ourselves to be vulnerable, honest, humble, and caring. We do not act in judgement, but in love. It was also highly agreed upon that this is easier said than done. How do you stop gossipping about that woman down the street? How to you stop teasing that freckled-face boy on the playground? How do you give up some of your time, money, comfort, childish fears, imperfections, and vulnerabilities to help somebody else? You take small steps, and you ask yourself how what you are doing and saying would make you feel. Would it make you smile? Would it make you cry (in a good way, or in a bad way)? Would you get angry? Would it hurt you physically? Would it help you?

I am very lucky that I was raised with that way of thinking, but sometimes I do not always succeed in loving others as well as I should. It is not often that I make fun of somebody for being different, it is not common that I speak harshly of someone behind their back, but sometimes I struggle with taking the attention off of myself and onto others. I get into my own little world and begin to think it is “All About Me”. It is times like those that I find myself trying very hard to please other people, until I burn out. I still need to find a balance, and I think that slowly but surely I am getting closer to that goal.

It all comes around to the golden rule: do unto others as you would have done unto you.

Happy Adventures,


November 30, 2010 at 10:07 PM Leave a comment

Out The Window!

Alright, so I am feeling like SUCH a nerd right now. I want to paint and draw so badly, and I have this idea in my head for the outcome, but no matter how hard I try it doesn’t come out right. I want to draw myself throwing my fear, hatred, pain, sorrow, angst, drama, needs, loneliness, and heartache out the window! And I see a little box in the corner, shaped like a heart, with love, kindness, health, joy, dreams, desires, hopes, support, and safety overflowing out of it. I just can’t get it right! UGH! >_<

lol I just have to keep at it.

Here are a couple of lame-o sketches. Ha ha ha…

Happy Adventures,

November 29, 2010 at 3:45 PM 2 comments

Sometimes I think I’m a…

MODEL. But only for pretend purposes, of course. Sometimes it is fun to dress up, do your make-up, and prance around for pictures! 🙂 Fun things come out of it, and you might even end up liking a few of them.

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Don’t be afraid to have fun and get your picture taken. Remember, you might never look better than you do RIGHT NOW and for every several mediocre pictures comes that one really amazing picture that makes you feel great about yourself! 😀 Streak mud across your cheeks and mess up your hair, or doll yourself up for some glamourous photographs.

Happy Adventures,

November 26, 2010 at 1:25 AM Leave a comment

Thankfully Humbled (via )

I very much enjoyed reading this blog, I think you might like it too. 😉

Thankfully Humbled When most people think of Thanksgiving and Norman Rockwell, the painting that usually comes to mind is this one.  "Freedom From Want": The one that usually comes to MY mind is this one:  "Thanksgiving: Girl Praying": I'm sad to say that more people probably relate more to the latter because of personal tragedy and a failing economy.  You see these TV specials and reality shows about families losing their homes and struggling to make ends meet wit … Read More


November 24, 2010 at 10:35 PM Leave a comment

Being thankful, and meaning it…

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, also lovingly called “Turkey Day” (something I rarely call it since I do not like Turkey very much anyhow). I have so much to be thankful for, it is ridiculous! And yet, I find myself being frustrated, crying, or wondering “WHY” I can’t have everything I want. It really seems like in my life I have become so focused on myself and my own dreams and needs that I have forgotten about the people around me. I have been inspired a lot lately by a lot of blogs, a lot of loving people, my small group, and certain events in my life and the lives of others around me. I have been inspired to not just LIVE in LOVE, but to help other people live in love too.

Sometimes in my own little world I still forget about how lucky I have it though, and I take everything for granted. Tonight, the evening before Thanksgiving, I am reminded how truly blessed I am. I was driving home from work in the rain, excited about movie night with my family since we haven’t had much time to watch movies together lately. It was cold, wet, and dark outside. While I was driving down the stretch of road that goes through the middle of town I saw two people walking. They were wearing very light clothing, and jackets that did not look warm at all. At first glance I thought they were young teenagers caught in the rain and walking home, so I pulled over to the side of the road and waited as they approached my vehicle.

I was wrong, they were not teenagers. Two adult women looking tired, thin, and fragile came up to my vehicle and I opened the door to them. My heart ached and I asked them if they needed a ride somewhere. The first woman said “Oh, yes, PLEASE. Where are you going?”

 I smiled and asked “Where do you need to go?”

The answer I got back was not what I was expecting, as it was an hour away driving distance and these women were walking there. I looked at my gas tank and saw that I was low on gas, and my family was waiting for me at home. I compromised in my head that I could take these women across town to the UDF where they could get out of the cold, and potentially meet somebody who could get them where they needed to go. They were so thankful they repeated their thanks over, and over, and over again. My head started to swell, and I just smiled at them, remembering that this was not about me. One of the ladies said “Hallelujah, there ARE still good people in the world!”

I felt drawn to helping these women, and I couldn’t help but ask where they were headed to. The answer that they gave sent my head into a spin, and I do not feel comfortable blogging about it here, but it was not what I expected to hear from anyone that I picked up to take somewhere. I realized then how lucky I am, how blessed I am, and how hidden away from pain and struggles I am. These two women, whatever they might be into in their lives, were angels sent to remind me to care for others. I dropped them off and asked if they needed anything else, wished them good luck and a Happy Thanksgiving, and told them that God was always there for them.

The second woman smiled and said “I’ve found faith.”

Happy Adventures,

November 24, 2010 at 6:36 PM Leave a comment


Change is scary, but it is also exciting. You cannot let your fears of change consume you, instead try to focus on the positive. See with love, not fear.

Sometimes change is hard to cope with. Change is something that still terrifies me, even after I have struggled through lots of it and usually appreciated the changes. Even just the word change can send a chill down my spine. I am trying very hard though to see with love, not with fear, and focus on all the wonderful things in my life that are staying the same, as well as all of the wonderful new experiences I will have. With change, good changes or bad changes, always comes something new that can open your eyes to something you may not have seen before. Even after some of the hardest changes in my life, I have always come out stronger in the end.
Remember to be good to the people around you! And if you get a chance, stop over to and read the blog post “Seeing Past What It Seems” ( ). I read that post and it really inspired me even more to be encouraging the people around me. 😀
Happy Adventures,

November 24, 2010 at 11:33 AM Leave a comment

Letting Off Steam

When I am feeling down and out, I have a little “activity” that always seems to make me feel better. I take a pen and paper and I start writing the first words that come to my mind, and I try my best not to hesitate in scrawling them down, one word at a time. I do not scribble out the words. I do not judge the words as I write them, and I do not change the order of the words, I simply write. The writing motion is soothing, since it is repetetive and calms the nerves. Aside from that, I find that usually my mind automatically drifts toward positive things, even when I am feeling sad or angry. Seeing those positive words on the paper as I write down the first things that come to mind really boosts my positivity, and I feel back in the game again. Even more helpful to me is reading through them after they are all written, when I am all out of words or my wrist is aching, and I smile to myself because I see that life is full of ups and downs, but in the end I need to be myself, and I am the one controlling the pen. One day I hope to be able to write one of these “vent lists” with as few negative words as possible, and I hope to look at a paper filled with positive and encouraging words once I get the first few negative words off my chest.

And the best part is, I can either keep these words to myself, shred them, or use them as inspiration to create something to inspire other people.

Somehow, in this crazy world, all the good and the bad balance out to create something beautiful we might not always see at the first look.

 Happy Adventures,

November 23, 2010 at 9:22 PM Leave a comment


Have you ever felt like you don't even recognize yourself anymore? I can relate... but it will get better! Create your life how you want it to be, and enjoy it.

Do you ever wonder why you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror? Are you sometimes afraid to let people see who you really are inside? You may not be a liar, but you might not be living honestly. Sometimes I struggle with myself, I worry what people will think if I say or do something. Not in the sense that they will dislike me, or tease me, or ridicule me. Generally I am very proud of myself and who I am and I will do what I want to do no matter what people say to make me think I am wrong. The fear I have is that I will cause someone else to think they have let me down in some way. If I am feeling lonely, and I say that I am, I don’t want my friends and family to feel guilty. If I am feeling scared, I don’t want my parents to think they didn’t raise me to be brave. In essence, I don’t want anyone else to feel like they have done anything wrong. They haven’t. Sometimes I am just going through a phase, a beautiful phase, of discovery and wonder… and “epiphany”.

I try my best to live honest and open, with my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes people don’t like that about me and it scares them away- sometimes people think it’s amazing. I’ve learned that even though I need to be myself, and I need to love myself, I also need to be able to rely on community and love and trust. That makes the balancing act of being honest and being considerate a fine line to balance for me, and I struggle from time to time.

Sometimes I feel broken, but that is just another opportunity to let another helpful heart into my life. Looking back I realize that most of my closest friends and family members REALLY came into my life in a moment of vulnerability. Don’t be afraid of being vulnerable, but rather embrace it and let people come together to support you. Support each other in life, helping to make sure that seatbelts are fastened when they need to be but also that they are free to fall if they need to as well. Everything in life is a chance to learn, absorb, and grow. Create what YOU want out of it, but also remember that community is important. Lend a helping hand, be a shoulder to cry on, prepare a meal, write a song for someone. Dance, sing, and be happy because life is short and you need to enjoy the life you have been given. Enjoy that life, and mold that life around you, always making sure to leave room for growth and change.

Happy Adventures,

November 23, 2010 at 7:18 PM Leave a comment

Perfection IS NOT Reality

Today I’ve been hung up on “perfectionism” and why people make such a big deal out of perfection. We always hear how “nothing is perfect”, and generally people try their best to get there and enjoy the ride along the way whether they reach “perfect” or not. My question is why do some people strive so much more to reach “perfect” than others? Maybe I am one of those people. According to a book I picked up about it today, it is highly likely that I am one of those people. Maybe I am just “borderline”, but I relate enough to the “if you are thinking like this…” section that I do not want to risk it.

perfectionism  per·fec·tion·ism (pər-fěk’shə-nĭz’əm)
A tendency to set rigid high standards of personal performance.

I am constantly striving for perfection. I want to be well-rounded in everything because people should be well-rounded, ideally. In my twisted sense of reality a perfect person is well-rounded, so I strive for that. If I were simply trying to be “well-rounded” then it might not be as much of an issue… instead, I strive to master EVERYTHING. In my attempts to reach greatness in everything I do, I fall short almost every time which makes me feel bad about myself even more. I do not see myself as having a low self-esteem, but I am always looking for that next compliment to get me through the day (even when I don’t think I deserve it).

From a very young age we are told we can do anything we want to do. We are told “practice makes perfect”. We are given unrealistic ideals that model things for us. Some people are better at handling it than others, and some of us feel defeated by not being able to tackle everything exactly the right way. We either spend too long practicing something that we never feel like we master, or we give up if we don’t do it right the first time. We are intimidated by failure, so eventually we might even stop trying altogether.

I don’t ever want to stop trying, and I am going to work harder to set realistic goals and expectations for myself while striving for excellence.

“The pursuit of excellence is gratifying and healthy. The pursuit of perfection is frustrating, neurotic, and a terrible waste of time.” -Edwin Bliss

This song really inspires me to keep going, and not to be afraid to fall. I listen to it a lot to remind myself that I will never reach the stars if I do not learn to fly, and I can’t learn to fly if I never jump.

“When you reach for the stars, you may not quite get one, but you won’t come up with a handful of mud either.”
-Leo Burnett

Fight perfectionism; embrace gravity!
Happy Adventures,

November 20, 2010 at 6:09 PM Leave a comment

Photo Mosaic

I found this interesting idea on a blog that I used to frequent, and I decided it would be fun to try! 🙂

1. Answer each of the questions below using Flickr Search.
2. Choose a photo from the first three pages.
3. Copy the URL of your favorite photo into this site:
4. Save and share

1. First Name
2. Favorite Music
3. Favorite Food
4. Favorite Color
5. Favorite Weather
6. Favorite Drink
7. Dream Vacation
8. Favorite Dessert
9. Vocation/Career
10. One of the things I love most in the world
11. One Word That Describes Me
12. Something Else About Me


 1. heather bokeh, 2. swing, 3. Blueberry Muffin Anyone?, 4. Nature . Landscape . Mauve . Purple, 5. Tempestad de verano – Summer Storm, 6. Cuba Gallery: nature / rain / water droplet / background texture / organic / natural / leaf / bokeh / macro, 7. Kirk Pedersen: Urban Asia, Osaka at Night, 8. Mile-High Peanut Butter-Brownie Pie, 9. If I Were a Librarian …, 10. Joshua Tree, 11. Crazy Colorful House, 12. Hoverfly on Sweetpea

Happy Adventures,

November 17, 2010 at 9:00 PM Leave a comment

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Heather loves hats that are designed to look like cute animals, fairy wings, cheese pizza, swimming in ponds, roller blading, taking silly self-portraits, learning, spending time with people, and just about everything else too. Heather does not love ... well, there isn't a lot that she doesn't love. You can probably figure it out after a little while!