November 23, 2010 at 7:18 PM Leave a comment

Have you ever felt like you don't even recognize yourself anymore? I can relate... but it will get better! Create your life how you want it to be, and enjoy it.

Do you ever wonder why you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror? Are you sometimes afraid to let people see who you really are inside? You may not be a liar, but you might not be living honestly. Sometimes I struggle with myself, I worry what people will think if I say or do something. Not in the sense that they will dislike me, or tease me, or ridicule me. Generally I am very proud of myself and who I am and I will do what I want to do no matter what people say to make me think I am wrong. The fear I have is that I will cause someone else to think they have let me down in some way. If I am feeling lonely, and I say that I am, I don’t want my friends and family to feel guilty. If I am feeling scared, I don’t want my parents to think they didn’t raise me to be brave. In essence, I don’t want anyone else to feel like they have done anything wrong. They haven’t. Sometimes I am just going through a phase, a beautiful phase, of discovery and wonder… and “epiphany”.

I try my best to live honest and open, with my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes people don’t like that about me and it scares them away- sometimes people think it’s amazing. I’ve learned that even though I need to be myself, and I need to love myself, I also need to be able to rely on community and love and trust. That makes the balancing act of being honest and being considerate a fine line to balance for me, and I struggle from time to time.

Sometimes I feel broken, but that is just another opportunity to let another helpful heart into my life. Looking back I realize that most of my closest friends and family members REALLY came into my life in a moment of vulnerability. Don’t be afraid of being vulnerable, but rather embrace it and let people come together to support you. Support each other in life, helping to make sure that seatbelts are fastened when they need to be but also that they are free to fall if they need to as well. Everything in life is a chance to learn, absorb, and grow. Create what YOU want out of it, but also remember that community is important. Lend a helping hand, be a shoulder to cry on, prepare a meal, write a song for someone. Dance, sing, and be happy because life is short and you need to enjoy the life you have been given. Enjoy that life, and mold that life around you, always making sure to leave room for growth and change.

Happy Adventures,


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Heather loves hats that are designed to look like cute animals, fairy wings, cheese pizza, swimming in ponds, roller blading, taking silly self-portraits, learning, spending time with people, and just about everything else too. Heather does not love ... well, there isn't a lot that she doesn't love. You can probably figure it out after a little while!

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