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New Year’s Eve

Today is New Year’s Eve where I am from and in my cultural beliefs, for anyone who might not know. I like to celebrate New Year’s Eve as a day of remembering your favorite moments of the previous year, but also to look ahead and really accept change and growth that are inevitable. New Year’s Eve means so much more than just staying up late, partying with your friends, and coming up with some rigid scheme to improve yourself. Sure, I always end up doing those things– I just think there is more to it than that. I think that it is a great time to reflect on who you have been, and be excited about who you will be.

I know I am very excited about the upcoming year. I have so many amazing things in store! I have a couple new classes to attend, I am still going to be taking voice lessons, and I will be given so many opportunities to grow and improve that I couldn’t possibly plan them TONIGHT. I mean, I could try. I could say, “I want to improve my guitar playing again, get back to where I used to be.” I could plan for that, and I could succeed. But what if I am given an opportunity to do something incredible that would take away from my guitar playing? Something that would change my life that I never saw coming? Suppose I would jump at the chance and try to work on my guitar playing on the side.

Let’s face it, we could all use improvement. Nobody is perfect, everybody has issues they want to work through. I say that we take this night as an opportunity to be happy as we are, right now. The person that the past years have shaped us into, a strong and intelligent person capable of tackling a new year.

I filmed that quick video with my brand new Canon EOS 7D, handheld. All but adding the credits, merging the clips, and muting/slowing down the last clip this is all straight out of camera (including the audio). Sorry about the dog whining.  It was my first “real” attempt at creating something with my new camera, and I think it turned out pretty well considering I just got the camera yesterday right before I left for work. It is quite shaky at a little bit of it, and I am changing the focus a lot for “practice”, but it isn’t the worst video I’ve ever made. Ha ha… that was kind of a joke, since it’s the only one (excluding un-published and lost videos from my point & shoot several years ago).

I am very excited about my day ahead, since I get to travel to see my best friend. I haven’t seen this girl in ages, since she left for college, and I miss her a lot. Ring in your New Year with love and positivity and gratitude.

Happy Adventures,


December 31, 2010 at 10:58 AM 4 comments

It’s Christmas, Christmas!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS! 🙂 Today is the day to be with your loved ones and the people you hold dear. It is a day to recieve and to give. It is a day to cherish. There are cookies, and crazy hats, and bizarre traditions. There are new things and old things. Cuddle up on the couch with a book and your new Christmas slippers (oh wait, am I the only one who got Christmas slippers? Nevermind!). Let your problems escape your mind for the day and just BE MERRY!

(All the above photographs were taken by myself with no tripod, using a Canon EOS Digital Rebel XSi and the 18-55mm kit lens. The camera was set on Program mode with no flash.)

I hope your Christmas is as wonderful as mine has been! 😀 Love and happiness for this magical time of year!

Happy Adventures,

December 25, 2010 at 6:56 PM 2 comments

“…So I’m gonna start over tonight, beginning with you and I…”

I listen to Paramore a lot, and sometimes I wonder if they read my mind. Some of their lyrics seem to mirror experiences I am going through, or feelings I have. I do not agree with everything that Paramore does or says, but I don’t agree with ANYONE 100%. I feel moved to blog about some experiences I have had after listening to their song “Miracle” and fully taking in the lyrics. Wow… miracle is definitely right.


  /ˈmɪrəkəl/ Show Spelled[mir-uh-kuhl]

1. an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2. such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of [G]od.
3. a wonder; marvel.
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This year I almost had the biggest falling out of my life. I almost lost not one, not two, but… thirteen close friendships. Why? Because of my stupid, selfish, stubborn, PRIDE. The word pride is like venom to me these days. Things are not completely healed, but we are in the midst of the healing process. It doesn’t matter anymore who was wrong, who was right, or who started it. All that matters to me is that it is over.

Graphic Design that I created using an image of Hayley Williams from google search (I'll post the original below), and lots of layers in Adobe Photoshop. I used a Wacom Intuos3 4x6 Pen Tablet, and it was a lot of fun to edit the image.

I’m posting the lyrics to this song because if there is anyone else out there who is struggling with similar emotions, just let it go. Start over, and as long as the situation is not abusive or life-threatening there is ALWAYS hope to restore friendships. It will take a lot of work, a lot of love, even more forgiveness, and sometimes it will take a good blow to your pride and your ego. But that is where you have to weigh the options, and you have to realize that sometimes it isn’t just their fault. Sometimes, when you really close your eyes and meditate on it from an unbiased viewpoint you will see that you have made just as many mistakes. Is it worth losing sleep? Is it worth causing somebody else pain, just so you can be “the winner”?

Original photograph from the edited design above, found on Google search.

I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive
So I’m going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I’m gonna make sure it’s replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
I hope I told you

I’m not going
cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle
And I’m not leaving
I won’t let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

We’ve learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We’ve tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we’re broken
I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill my fears
But have I told you how I..

I’m not going
Cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle
And I’m not leaving
I won’t let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

It’s not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why

Get it right this time (this time)
Let’s leave this all behind
Oh why

We’ll get it right this time
It’s not faith if you’re using your eyes
Oh why

I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive
So I’m going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I

I don’t want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I’m not going
Cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle
And I’m not leaving
I won’t let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It’s not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes

“Miracle” by Paramore
I hope deep down that nobody ever needs this post… but just in case you do, I’m praying for YOU and that everything works out in YOUR situation how it needs to. No matter how desperate things seem, somebody loves you. Even if you don’t always know it in your head.
Happy Adventures,

December 23, 2010 at 10:41 PM 2 comments

When Words and Images Collide

A picture speaks a thousand words, but almost as fun as pushing a shutter down on a camera is writing a thousand words to create a picture in the human mind. I like both styles of expression.


Happy Adventures,




December 23, 2010 at 11:41 AM Leave a comment

A Walk in my Shoes

You would probably get dirty… like my shoes.

  • You would be tired, broken down, and have your experiences written all over your face.
  • There would not be anyone else like you.
  • You would have so many stories to tell, and you’d probably tell them.
  • You would be cherished by somebody who built the memories with you.
  • Some people would look at your outward appearance and reject you.
  • You would shake the dust off your feet and move on.
  • You’d have so much random trivia just waiting to burst out of you.
  • Outward beauty would not mean as much to you as comfort and happiness.
  • You would recieve as many compliments as you would strange looks!

Oh yes. These are my favorite shoes. ❤

Happy Adventures,

December 22, 2010 at 9:41 PM 4 comments

Winter Solstice Lighting

Me, proudly sporting my faerie wings while trying to keep my candle lit as I walk.

This was one of the most amazing experiences in my life. It was very surreal, very cold, and very positive and loving. Friends and strangers from the area came together the night before the Winter Solstice to light “the serpent” with 900 candles, and everybody was lighting their candle for a different reason. They were lighting candles to remember, lighting candles to honor, lighting candles to bring hope, and there were no judgements. One woman lit her candles in honor of a local boy who was killed overseas and all the other men and women fighting to keep us safe. Another woman chose to light her candle in a prayer that we could restore health to Mother Earth. One little boy was so excited that he got to hold a real candle with a real fire, and he was lighting his candle so that all the superheros would keep us safe.

As I lit a candle a photographer took my picture, ... must have been because of the wings.

I lit my candle in hopes that people around the world recognize the power of a true, loving, honest community. I lit another candle for a very special family in hopes that they get what they need most this Christmas season. I lit one and said a prayer to God to watch over all of these people on their travels home this evening. And finally, it might be wishful thinking, but I lit a candle in hopes that a very dear friend in Heaven might see it and smile.

There were several people gathered, of many different backgrounds and views.

Lots of lights, and lots of love.

Everyone there was totally accepting of my crazy decision to wear faerie wings. They did not look down on me, roll their eyes at me, or laugh at me. In fact, many people would smile at me and compliment my wings. 🙂 I felt so comfortable, just being myself, waltzing around feeling like magic was floating in the air around me. One woman said “I knew the faerie princess would come tonight,” before she embraced me in a very happy hug; another woman gave me a string of beads; and a little girl hid shyly behind her mother’s legs and pointed at my wings, asking her mom if I was a real faerie. It was as if people forgot for one night their insecurities, their problems, and their fears and they just loved.

The sunset, it was beautiful...

In the magic of the night, I attempted to fly. It didn't quite work, but can you blame me?

The lit candles were breathtaking in the snow. 🙂

I will remember this night fondly, and I wonder how much I will grow before next year. Only time will tell I suppose. It was a great finishing touch to a fabulous weekend.

Happy Adventures,

December 22, 2010 at 1:48 PM 10 comments

Whirlwind, strikes again.

A poorly lit cell phone self portrait during the intermission of The Nutcracker. 😀 I was soooooo happy. I love ballet!

Wow, what a weekend I have had! 🙂 it has been non-stop, point a to point b to point c and so on, only making it home in time to sleep a few hours before starting all over on a new day. Voice lessons, art museums, arcade night, work, my J’s house, The Nutcracker Ballet, ice skating, fancy restaurants, parading around wearing faerie wings in public, copious amounts of coffee, JC Penney’s, grocery store, physical therapy for Mom, Chick-fil-A this afternoon with friends, and a special activity this evening followed by dinner at Gram’s, a rushed visit to the library before they close, catching up on vocal warm-ups, drawing Christmas cards for people, making a phone call, and FINALLY sleeping before I wake up for work tomorrow, and then I am going to attempt to find Christmas gifts for at least my parents and my brother. Hahaha! And so it goes!

As soon as I get a chance to be at my computer instead of on my phone I will upload some pictures from my day in the city and recount a better tale of the events. 🙂 I have missed blogging this past couple days. That is why I resorted to blogging from my cell phone while mom is in her physical therapy.

Something I have learned from this weekend is that community stretches far beyond the confines of your own small town’s limits. Especially these days!! 😉

Heeheehee 😉 my “faerie silhouette” (aka, my shadow from when I was wearing my faerie wings) after I edited it in Photoshop for fun.

Happy Adventures,

December 20, 2010 at 9:00 AM 2 comments

Ahh… this one’s gonna be good.



-drool- This is what breakfast should look like EVERY DAY.



  1. Blueberry Waffles.
  2. Warm Blueberry Syrup w/ Fresh Blueberries
  3. Whipped Cream (for pretties, and yummies!)

Boy, I know how to make a beautiful breakfast!! 🙂 I love waffles. Mmm…

Today is going to be a very good day.

Almost as good as Thanksgiving, when I saw this delicious work of culinary art my cousin made:

1. Drool

2. Savor


And, does anyone know how long you are supposed to steam broccoli? I am in charge of making lunch today before I leave for work… 😉 I should probably go check on it.

Me, silly, warming up the carrrr. :O


Happy Adventures,

December 16, 2010 at 11:09 AM 5 comments

Longing for that ONE other thing… and the other one too.

Okay, so I am doing it to myself again. I am drooling over video after video about the Canon EOS 7D. This is something I do whenever I find the time. Sometimes I even make time for it. At first it is wonderful and I get so excited about this camera, and all of the things I am going to do once I get it. I just can’t contain my excitement, and I have been known to bounce around in my computer chair during the YouTube video. I squirm, giggle, squeal, take notes, and all but cry happy tears. And then it happens… the realization that I don’t have this camera. Yet. I get anxious, scratchy, and my eyes begin to squint. I think I can cure these feelings though by watching even more amazing videos to make me feel better again. It doesn’t work. I just keep thinking, “If only, ohhhh if only I had that camera in my hands right now… ohhh the magic…”

This is my confession: I am addicted to wanting things. I am constantly gazing puppy-eyed at “that something else I don’t have yet, that I will have one day, or maybe never” and ending up with feelings of depression once I drop from the high.

It is because of this very confession that I have been trying my best to make a conscious effort to be content with what I have since I was about fourteen years old. Because of that, I am going to share some amazing photographs that I have taken with the camera I already have, and love that somehow take my breath away. Even still, I look at these images and I gasp a little. I think to myself, “Did I really capture this?” And okay, so maybe these photographs aren’t “all that special” or “amazing”, but I am still very proud of them. They are good to ME, and that is what counts for what I am doing right now. Remember, the goal is to be happy with what I have… not to stress about what I don’t have yet.

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Happy Adventures,

December 15, 2010 at 11:52 PM 2 comments

Pieces of One

 Aren’t human beings incredible? We are made up of lots of tiny pieces. Cells that form tissue, fight off germs, hold us together, make us unique. Cells that communicate with each other, and function as a community inside of ourselves. All of these itty-bitty little pieces of ourselves combine to make one life. One. There is more to the story though, than the physical. We have emotional pieces too. We have memories, hopes, dreams, fears, and expectations. Sometimes our pieces are lost, taken away, or are given to us by another member of our community to help make us a whole. You are born with certain pieces, and as you learn and grow you gain new pieces or get rid of the ones that aren’t as important. We’re almost like a puzzle. People can’t figure us out. Even as we examine ourselves, we end up with question after question. Sometimes, things just don’t fit. That does not matter though, because what matters is the pieces you have and how you have come to end up with those pieces. What matters is what you shape with those pieces. You might be trying to make the puzzle of your one life look like another persons puzzle, and you get frustrated because it just isn’t fitting. Your pieces don’t add up.

“Why don’t I look like them?”

“Why don’t I sound like them?”

Why can’t I draw like them?”

“Why don’t I fit into the puzzle?”

I am here to tell you right now, in the most honest an sincere way that I can, that these questions hurt. These questions can lead you to believe that you aren’t worth it. But these questions have ONE answer. That one answer, is because you are made up of your own special pieces. You have pieces that nobody else in the world has. You have the piece that your grandmother gave you on your first birthday. You have the piece that your best friend gave you when you didn’t quite pass that test. You have the piece that your mother gave you when she tucked you in at night. You have the piece that your aunt gave you when you couldn’t find the piece your best friend gave you.

“I am unique, and special.”

I can do great things with the pieces I have.”

Everyone has something to offer, and someone needs a piece I have to offer.”

People are made up of several tiny pieces, and they can break at any one moment. Pieces can be added to them, or taken away. The most important piece is love.

That is one of the most beautiful parts. The whole time you are learning, and growing, and receiving you are also sharing. You have the ability and the capacity to share pieces with the people you love and care about. You have the wisdom, strength, and joy to reach out and touch strangers with a piece you can spare. Sometimes, you have so many of the same piece that you can just hand them out whenever anyone needs them because people are always giving you duplicates. Sometimes, you make your own pieces. You dig deeply down inside of yourself, and you pull something beautiful from deep within you when you or someone you know needs it most.

Human society is almost like the human body itself. Lots of pieces, all trying to fit together into a puzzle and form a community. Sometimes the pieces fight with each other, and sometimes the pieces don’t understand each other, sometimes the pieces never cross paths because they have very different jobs to do. But in the grand scheme of things, we all work together to form a balance in community.

I can give one of my pieces to a neighbor, she can then give that piece to her neighbor, and he can give it to his neighbor and so on until there are little pieces of me everywhere. Until I have had such a profound effect that nobody, including myself, is aware that I touched so many people. Human beings are constantly creating, constantly being inspired, constantly learning, growing, mimicking, until it all wraps together into this incredible puzzle we call life.

My pieces are not perfect, but neither are yours. Let’s be one, together,

Happy Adventures,

December 14, 2010 at 3:32 PM 6 comments

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Heather loves hats that are designed to look like cute animals, fairy wings, cheese pizza, swimming in ponds, roller blading, taking silly self-portraits, learning, spending time with people, and just about everything else too. Heather does not love ... well, there isn't a lot that she doesn't love. You can probably figure it out after a little while!