Weaknesses, and Learning to Turn Them Into Strengths

July 24, 2011 at 3:53 PM 3 comments

I have many weaknesses that I am not proud of. I am pretty clingy, unusually needy for somebody who is so independent, obnoxious, scatterbrained, and over-emotional. I also tend to over analyze just about everything. I gotta stop thinking quite so much. I am doing my best to turn these weaknesses into strengths though, and my life has been blessed with many teachers. Some of them are the dear kind, that are kindred spirits and full of life and encouragement. The others are the kind that teach me what not to do. I’ve developed some serious troublemakers in my life, and somewhere out of nowhere after I thought I had learned everything I needed to learn from them they taught me something else. I don’t know how I feel about it.

I cried, a lot. I called a friend, and later felt bad because I bothered them over something so minute. I am still glad I called them though, because I was reminded just what I needed to be reminded. I am enough. Troublemakers are put in my life for a reason. I need to be content. I can be content. I am content. I am blessed. After that I sat in a quiet room by myself for a while and I blessed many people, including my troublemakers. It amazes me that this morning I was so jubilant and by 11 am I was crying hysterically and almost in a sort of convulsions. I guess that is one of my many traits; living in the moment. You know, for living in the moment I sure have been clinging to the past…

Maybe it’s time to just let it all go. If only I knew how. Until then, I will do my best to keep going and not let it drag me too far down. I hope. I will do my best to avoid those dangerous questions I ask– like “What’s the point of anything?” or “Who cares?”

Or those phrases, the ones that never help me out of a downward spiral but always seem to come up. “Everyone leaves anyway,” or “No one would miss me,” or “I wonder how it would feel, if I’d just bleed it all out.”

Instead, I am going to focus on other things. Beautiful things.

I am beautiful.
I am strong.
I am surrounded by love.
I am a giver of love.
I am courageous.
I am talented.
I am caring.
I am worth it.
I am a part-time fairy-wing wearer.
I am an artist.
I am a dreamer.
I am a woman.
I am a musician.
I am a singer.
I am a library assistant.
I am a teacher.
I am a student.
I am a hard worker.
I am a free spirit.
I am a little ridiculous.
I am capable.
I am loved.
I. Am. Enough.

So are you. Take it from someone who knows.

When I think about all of the people that I have missed in my life, and all of the people that I currently miss, then throw in the ones that I would miss terribly I realize something. I would be missed. I am missed.

I might be too honest. If that is my biggest weakness, I will always find a way to be happy.

Happy Adventures,
Burkie

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  • 1. analyfe  |  July 26, 2011 at 10:56 PM

    I can really relate to you. Life can be tough and it’s so easy to focus on all the negatives, but each of us is full of and surrounded by so much love and so much beauty. I’m happy that you’re able to see those wonderful things in yourself. 🙂

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    • 2. Heather  |  July 26, 2011 at 11:07 PM

      Aw, thank you so much for stopping by and commenting! 😀 I am trying so hard to remember to see the positives!

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  • 3. Pamela B.  |  July 27, 2011 at 8:54 AM

    Heather,

    I love the positive things you said about yourself. You are all that and so much more. There’s just one thing left to do……

    Believe it.

    I love you, dear one.

    Pamela B.

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