The Itch of Life, as Opposed to the Spice.

October 13, 2011 at 11:58 AM Leave a comment

Well, people of the world, I am itching.

Not itching from poison ivy, not itching from a rash, not itching from dry scalp, not even itching from anticipation.

Okay, maybe it has a little bit to do with anticipation, but that still doesn’t quite cover the sensation I am feeling. Yes, I am excited about “FUTURE” and this inevitable “moving forward” that always happens. Yes, I am anticipating change ahead. Yes, I am very excited about using my new Derwent Watercolor Pencils. All of that falls into itching with anticipation, but there’s still more.

I am also itching for comfort. Itching for sameness. Itching for the seemingly un-attainable something that starts to form clearly in my mind and then disappears. Itching for the past tense to become present tense, and possibly future tense.

Is this itching a normal way to feel? Do we all itch about things? Do all of us have so many varieties of itch? Can I buy an itch cream to take care of my itch somewhere (maybe in the form of chocolate, or ice cream, or art supplies)?

 Does the itch drive me, or does it hinder me? Can it do both at the same time? Is this itch sort of like a premonition, or a memory, or a divine message? What if I really do have a mosquito bite somewhere and I’m just pulling out all of this nonsense to explain something that I haven’t seen?

Maybe I’m also itching a little bit from a scab starting to fall off. Maybe I’m itching for healing. Maybe I’m itching because I can’t seem to leave my scars alone. Maybe I’m itching because other people keep picking at my wounds, even if they don’t always realize how I got them or what damage they could cause by pestering them.

I feel so much pressure right now, and yet no pressure at all. Does that cause an itch?

I keep thinking that someday I will tame the itch! I will move forward into a glorious light where my life and how much I appreciate transcends the itch. Will I grow out of it? Is it hereditary? Does it spawn from life circumstances or how I was raised? Nurture vs. Nature? I never have liked that competition… I wish that people would see the harmony of nurture and nature combined. They are both wonderful things, you know. They are also both awful things.

Is the itch what makes my life interesting? Would I be driven totally mad without it (or even moreso mad than I already am)? Would I stop asking questions because the itch no longer fuels them, or would I be as curious and pensive as ever? Would my life become motionless, as if I were stuck? Would I go through the motions? Is the itch warning me that I am already starting to go through the motions? Would I have a purpose to live, if I lost my itch?

Maybe. Maybe not. Part of the beauty of life is not knowing, which probably means I will itch for the rest of my life because I am the sort of person who likes to know stuff.

In conclusion, I do not have one.

Happy Adventures,
Burkie

P.S. While searching for images to use in this blog post since I am not at my home computer with all my own images, I discovered this blog post and I definitely think you should read it! It’s very insightful and uplifting.

I also found this one.

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