End of the Quarter Blues (Change vs. Control)

March 13, 2012 at 11:24 AM Leave a comment

The end of the quarter is very near, and I am just a little distraught about it. I don’t know why I’m always so sad to see the quarter go. Is it because I’ve grown attached to my classmates and professors and I don’t want to lose touch with them? Is it because I feel like I still have so much to learn? So much to prove? Is it because I just don’t really like change all that much in general?

That last question is a really tough one for me, because I love spontaneity, and quite frankly I tend to force change into my life because I get anxious. I develop a fear that my life will become stagnant and I begin to almost crave something new. I move furniture around in my room, I get rid of stuff, I chop my hair into a new style, I drop an old habit (soda, coffee, etc.), I throw myself into a new activity, direction, friendship, or dream.

For somebody who hates change, I go to great efforts to make change happen in my life. Then I think about it. I don’t really like change– I like control. The quarter ending, no matter what, is something I cannot change. I cannot control. I love change I can control. I hate change that I can’t. The reason I get the itch to change after periods of time is probably because I feel like, maybe just maybe, if I make change in my life then the change that is inevitably coming won’t seem quite as hard to swallow.

So, maybe the real reason that the end of the quarter bothers me so much is that I have absolutely no control over it. I can’t just make a quick change and say, “Oh, I changed the length of the quarter to one more/less week.” It is what it is, and I have to deal with that.

Happy Adventures,


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